November 22, 2017.
“The righteous shall move onward and forward; those with pure hearts shall become stronger and stronger.”-Job 17:9
Why is it so hard to let go of people?
They choose to walk out of our lives. Or do something that requires us to walk out of theirs. Or we realize the relationship is totally toxic so we have to try to get out now before it destroys the both of us.
Letting go may be necessary, but it’s not easy.
I remember hearing a sermon once that had to do with purity. The person explained that having sex with someone was like gluing two pieces of wood together. When it’s not your spouse and you break up, it’s like pulling those two pieces apart. You may be able to separate them, but those two pieces will never be the same again. They may have pieces of one another stuck to each other and they are left forever changed.
That sermon reminds me very much of what it is like to lose a friendship as well.
You get to know each other well and become “stuck together like glue” and when the friendship ends, the two of you are both left scarred. Left with the memories of your time spent together, and the longer the friendship-the greater the damage.
This is why letting go is hard. You’ve got pieces of them stuck in your heart, and that is incredibly painful.
But, God. But, Grace.
He heals all wounds, and as that sermon explained to me, He’s got a sander.
He sands down the extra pieces so that we can live without the constant reminder of the pain. He sands it down so we can let go and heal.
It does not mean that we go back to being the exact same person we were before-we’ve been broken and sanded down, and due to do that we will be forever changed. Though now, it does not hurt as bad.
I thank God for His Grace because trying to let go of certain friendships/relationships has been so hard.
But, thanks to God I think I’m finally ready to let go.
August 10, 2017.
” ‘For I know the plans I have for YOU,’ declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.’ ” -Jeremiah 29:11
Being told that you are a piece of crap really can make you feel like a piece of crap, you know?
I remember being with someone who told me that he did not like that I did not pray aloud. That I did not serve in the church. That I did not run around like a chicken with my head cut off doing Bible studies and volunteering for the church. He was disappointed that I did not openly share and show my faith.
& it killed me. What killed me even more was knowing that later on, I had done the same thing to others.
When you are new into loving Jesus and learning about Him, you usually do not jump right into praying over people. Serving in church is awesome, but it is not required. It also certainly is not necessary to keep yourself busy running/attending a bunch of different Bible studies.
So to be told that you are not good enough as soon as you are interested in just who Jesus is and His abounding love for us, well it just plan sucks. It makes you feel crappy and unworthy.
Which is so incredibly far from the truth of Christ is. We are unworthy, yet He loves us so much despite it all.
To Him, we are so, so, so worthy.
It took me some time to realize that the person’s words were not God’s words. God allowed me to grow in my own time. He showed me how to love deeper and be brave.
Words that say you are not enough are not words from God.
Whether you are brand new, and not really sure what is going on (been there) or are deep into your relationship with Christ but just have kind of lost yourself and your purpose for a while (definitely been there), remember that you are not expected to have it all together. It is okay.
God does not rush us to do things we are not ready for. If anything, it is honestly the devil’s doing if we feel we are being pushed too much, too soon. He knows we will rush into something for God, not be ready, hate it, and resent Him.
Follow your heart. Even if others cannot understand and try to make you feel awful. Our journeys may be different but He loves us all the same no matter where we may be in our faith. ❤
August 4, 2017.
Then He adds: “Their sins and lawless acts I will remember no more.”-Hebrews 10:17
Often, we think about forgiveness as us needing to forgive others or wishing others would forgive us.
Though, what about when we really need to forgive ourselves for the things we have allowed to happen? The things that have hurt us. The things that are our own faults.
We are usually hardest on ourselves.
But I have a hard time believing that God only wants us to forgive others. He wants us to forgive ourselves too.
When we live with hate in our hearts, especially for ourselves, it eats away at us. It tears us further and further from God. It also kills relationships that we have with others.
If you are struggling with this today, remember this: You are loved.
God loves you too much to watch you hate yourself and not be able to forgive and let go of the things you have allowed in the past.
Let go, y’all.
Free yourself of the prison you have locked yourself in.
Walk out and be free. You were never meant to stay in that place.