Let’s Talk.

Communicating.

We do it every single day in one way or another. We speak to others in person, call them, text them, email them, contact them through social media or communicate with them through our actions/body language.

We communicate about so many things that we think are important.

But we often find it so much more difficult to talk about the most important thing: Jesus.

Why do we find it so hard to talk about this?

Because we are afraid of the the rejection and judgment that can come from speaking about Him.

It can hurt and even embarrass us when others don’t react the way we wish they would.

But do it anyway!

Speak up. Tell others what you know about Jesus and the love that He gives to all.

He gave all for us, why not give up some of our fears for Him?

Let’s Talk.

-Kristin

Big Time.

“How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?”-Psalm 13:1

I feel it’s necessary to explain where this gorgeous picture was taken. 

I drove 45 minutes, and literally climbed over two fences (and past a few “keep out” signs) to get here.

I did it not go for the view, but in an attempt to get an ex boyfriend I desperately wanted back in my life.

We were going fishing and though I was exhausted and worn, I put in every ounce of effort I had left to make it out there to be with him.

& it didn’t make a difference. I didn’t get that guy back. I left with an even sadder heart and this picture as the only positive part of that evening.

I gave it my all and nothing came of it.

That hurts more than anything doesn’t it?

When we give things our all and feel like nothing comes of it, even worse that God is absent from our struggles.

We cry out in frustration: WHERE ARE YOU? I DID MY BEST, WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?

Often, we think the deafening silence we hear in return is a slap in the face.

& on that day specifically, I felt that way. 

I knew that this God everyone spoke of must not exist, or must not have cared about me because how could he? Wasn’t he supposed to come save the day?

At the time, I didn’t understand that God is a God of love. That even though I couldn’t see it, He had to let me struggle through this time so I would not continue to go back to this unhealthy relationship that was not good for me.

I needed it even though it hurt! I didn’t realize it at that time and it took me a very long time to see it.

If you’re struggling today, I get it. 

I get the pain and heartache and feeling that God is not there or that maybe He doesn’t even exist.  But friends, He does. He’s there for you even when He doesn’t seem it. & He will love you through it all.

Take heart today y’all. He loves us big time.

-Kristin 

Grateful Hearts.

“The Lord is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped, my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him.”-Psalm 28:7


There are so very many situations in life where we will find it hard to be grateful for what we have.

We may feel we have lost so much that we cannot see what else has been left. We cannot see that what has been left is something wonderful that we had never been able to truly see before.

I know I’m often guilty of this.

So focused on what is gone, that I forget how lucky I am to have what is still here to stay.

Though, I have noticed that the more I choose to be grateful; the happier and more content I am.

The more downtrodden I am about what is gone, the more absolutely miserable that I am.

It has made me start to realize that many things that happen to us are out of our control, but how we react to them are totally up to us.

We get to choose today.

We can choose to be happy or downtrodden.

What is your choice?

-Kristin 

The Sweetest of Love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.”-1 Corinthians 13:4-8

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I fully believe and know that we are often brought into the hardest of times in an attempt to bring us closer to God.

Though, if this was a test, I would surely fail every time.

Faith is a funny thing.

Why do I believe undoubtedly in a God who loves me so much that He sacrificed just so that I may know Him, yet when times get tough I forget He is there?

I begin to doubt He will be there for me. I begin to think the worst. I begin to feel the sorrow and anxiety flood in.

& I allow myself to get to that place and beat myself up over it.

But God doesn’t.

He loves me even though my faith wavers sometimes. He loves me despite my lack of strength and despite all the weaknesses I may have.

He keeps me even though I flunk every trial thrown my way.

He picks me up, dusts me off, and says there may be pain in the night but joy comes in the morning. It is a new day and I am still still loved.

He shows me the sweetest of love that there ever was or will be and I am convinced that no matter what may be thrown my way, that He will love me through it. Even when I don’t deserve it.

-Kristin-

 

 

Out of the Woods.

“. . .he Himself has shared fully in all our experience of temptation, except that He never sinned.” -Hebrews 4:15

There are so many highs and lows in life that sometimes it is difficult to keep up. We feel as if we’re doing alright one day and then the next day our world is flipped upside down. 

We are constantly looking for some solid ground to put our feet on, but we know that in the back of our mind that this actual place just doesn’t exist.

So how do we find peace in the unknown? How can we keep calm when the waves of uncertainty continue to roll in?

One word: Jesus.

Did you know that in his short time here on earth that He experienced the same emotions that we do? Grief, pain, joy, exhaustion. He knows it all and is able to sympathize with us because of it.

Max Lucado’s book, In the Eye of the Storm, gave me a lot of insight into this. 

We may not have an actual place to plant our feet on in order to find some stability, but luckily we do have a person we can place our faith in to get the same effect. 

Jesus will never leave or forsake us and He loves us even when we’re pretty unlovable. He is the rock on which we can stand and our Hope for everything.

He gets us.

If you’re in need of some stability and peace, look no further than the Man with the Scars.

-Kristin-

The Journey.

“For God so loved the world that he sent His only Son. That whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16


I wasn’t saved by Grace until I was 22.

Up until that time I was an atheist.

 I didn’t believe in a thing, I just didn’t openly act like I did. I lied a lot. I told people I believed in the god they wanted me to believe in because it just made things easier. 

I went to religious events because I wanted to fit in. I didn’t show who I truly was because I didn’t want to deal with the judgment that people put upon those who call themselves total non believers.

But the One, True God of the Universe had other plans for my life.

He wove His way into my life when I needed Him most.

He showed Himself and spoke to me when He knew I was finally ready to hear it.

He turned this liar who called themself a Christian, untruthfully, into a true believer.

This didn’t happen overnight. It occurred over months and honestly, I have a feeling it had been happening ever since my birth, but I only became open enough to see it as an adult. 

It’s been a wild journey with ups and downs. It has included many times of shaking faith, and many times where God literally sends me signs to remind me of His deep love for me. 

If you’re feeling that tug on your heartstrings from an unknown source, choose to open your heart and mind up to it. He pursues us because He LOVES us, but only we can choose to turn around and allow Him into our lives. 

Don’t wait for your journey like I did, start now!

-Kristin

When September Ends.

“But you, Lord, are a compassionate and generous God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.”-Psalm 86:15

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I’ve been absent from the blog for about two weeks. Mainly because life has been crazy and I didn’t know how to explain it in words.

From a hurricane, to a water heater leak (mold=yuck), to people being horrible, to friends experiencing extreme loss, to so many other things I don’t wish to even think about. It’s been a difficult month. The worst part was last week when my dog had to have emergency surgery.

He’s okay and is recovering now (which has been in of itself harder than I ever thought it’d be). But this month has changed who I am as a person.

The events have pushed me to painful places that I wish to never visit again. Places where I found myself feeling as if I were drowning and was afraid that God would not show up in time to save me.

But every single time, when I was at the very end of my rope and no longer could go on any further, He made himself known. He picked me up and made me stronger than I ever felt possible.

It’s an insane feeling of peace that is hard to explain, but it exists. I know because I have lived it in some of the deepest, darkest moments of life.

September. You were meant to destroy me. To pull me away from God and isolate me until I could take it no longer and broke.

But thankfully, love is stronger than hate. God can pull us out of your most desolate of places and remind us where we truly belong and who we truly are despite our circumstances.

I’m thankful for the God who directs the winds and waves but still cares about a heart like mine.

-Kristin

Gives and Takes.

“Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.”-Psalm 37:4


I still remember what it felt like to walk into the house of my dreams.

The realtor took me to look at it and not even 2 minutes into the tour I told him I wanted to put an offer in for it right then and there. It was a hot market and homes were going fast. 

It had everything: great floorplan, two car garage, new roof, new air conditioning unit, big fenced in backyard, no one to the right or behind and a pond across the street. Seriously this place was my dream. 

We heard the next day that they took someone else’s offer and just like that my dream house was gone. I remember feeling crushed. Buying a house in this market is rough!

But life went on.

I looked at other homes which did not pan out.

Then I saw…the one. One I’d never have pictured myself in. The smallest (and cheapest) one I’d seen with the most breathtaking backyard. The one sold by Jesus loving people who made the home feel full of Jesus’ love. 

I met the one because I lost what I thought had been “the one”.

My life is richer and more full because of this little brick I now own. It wasn’t my dream house but it’s more than I ever could have asked for, it’s my home.

God does not give us want we want. He gives us exactly what we need.

I drive by that former dream house often and I know longer feel sadness but thankfulness.

Thank you to the God who lovingly gives and takes away.

-Kristin

The Mighty Hand.

“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you,  casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”-1 Peter 5:6-7

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Forth As Gold is based in south Florida.

As one of the most powerful storms ever recorded in the Atlantic heads straight for our state, I cannot help but think back to 2004 when two other major hurricanes hit us dead on.  Hurricane Frances rocked our world and then as we were still trying to recover, Hurricane Jeanne did a loopty-loop out in the ocean and came straight for us again.

I remember so much about that time.  I remember coming home (we stayed at a friend’s house in town during the first storm) and seeing our house look like a tornado had hit it.  I remember my mother groaning as she walked into the house and we could smell and feel the water that had flooded in.  I remember how hot and sticky it was because we were out of power for two weeks (which I am pretty sure is a small inkling of how hell would be).  I remember having to shower with the hose and when we got a generator finally and almost cried tears of joy. I remember eating MRE’s and being on a city curfew.  I remember being out of school for almost a month and just feeling like I had lost a part of who I was.  I remember living on concrete floors until Christmas Eve that year and feeling having blue tarps on our roof until I don’t even remember when. I remember my parents saying how lucky we were that we were alive and still had a shell of a home to live in.

I remember, more than anything, the sound a hurricane makes when it comes through. The best way to describe it is a train going at full speed right in front of your face and it does not slow down for a very long time.

So, when I think about yet another hurricane coming, especially this one , I would be lying if I said I was not afraid.  Thinking back to 2004 gives me chills. This current storm is 2 times stronger and bigger than those and at this point it has been moving so much between the west and east coasts of Florida that they still cannot truly nail down a landfall point yet and that is scary. Even if it does not hit where we are, someone else will and it will be catastrophic.  Even those who do not get the straight on him will feel it immensely and that is scary too.

The Caribbean Islands have been destroyed by this monster already and have left many homeless and the others dead.

So where is God in all of this. 

Where was he is 2004? Where was he in Houston this year? Where is he now?

He’s here.

There is sin in this world. The wicked one is constantly trying to make us believe that God does not love us and does not care for us, but that is about as far from the truth as one could imagine. He loves us and He is here even when it seems like He isn’t.

When I feel overwhelmed (like right now), I watch this video on repeat and it encourages me and reminds me that God is sovereign even on the worst days.

I pray that wherever you are, if you are in Florida or the Caribbean or Texas or Mexico or anywhere in the world that you will never forget that ever-present, never-changing love that God has for you even in the most horrific of circumstances.

The mighty hand of God and His love for us is stronger than anything else in the universe.

-Kristin

Atheist.

“For indeed we have had good news preached to us, just as they also; but the word they heard did not profit them, because it was not united by faith in those who heard.”-Hebrews 4:2


I am a former atheist. 

I have it written on my Instagram bio and many people have asked me about it.

I think they ask because it’s weird to have someone who does not believe in anything to suddenly believe in God and live for Him like crazy. It’s even weirder because I have faked being a believer most of my life. 

My parents baptized me a young age in the Christian faith. They taught me to pray before I ate and before I went to bed at night. I went to youth groups and sang worship songs to try and fit in.

But that was all a lie. I didn’t believe in any of it. Praying to God I didn’t believe existed…silly right?

I didn’t believe anything existed beyond this world. I knew that if there was anything out there who loved me like people said that God did then the world wouldn’t be this bad. I wouldn’t feel such huge pain. 

But.

I. Was. Wrong.

There is a God. A true, one, Living God of the universe who loves me more than words can say. 

I was wrong, but I don’t feel annoyance toward those who haven’t seen what I have seen and still feel the way I did before. 

I think atheists get a bad rap. That they’re mean people who have negative outlooks on life and live sad, empty lives. But that’s not true either.

Atheists (and Christians too) come in all shapes, sizes, and have different opinions. 

More importantly, God loves atheists as much as He loves those who love Him back. 

& if we are thinking any differently…we need to get some prayer time in. 

Love God, love others. The end.

Former Atheist,

-Kristin-