“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” -Romans 8:38-39

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I have felt devastated since reading about the passing yesterday of an amazing Christian writer and woman whom I have never met. I read Rachel Held Evans’ book “Searching for Sunday” a few months ago and it completely changed my life and how I felt about my relationship with God. I saw that she was sick but had no idea it would lead to her death at the age of 37, leaving behind a husband and two young children.

I wish I could let Rachel know how deeply she affected me due to her transparency and vulnerability.  She was a visionary, a rebel, and a Jesus lover. She spoke up for the oddballs and outcasts – the ones who feel alone in a full room of people. She spoke up for people like me (and maybe like you).

She spoke about how doubts are okay, and that we should speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves. That loving Jesus also means loving everyone. That walking with Him means walking with those who traditional churches like to rag on piously.  That going to church doesn’t make you a Christian. That not going to church doesn’t mean you don’t love God.

#BecauseofRHE and her bravery, I am more alive in my faith than I have ever been or will be because I now know I am not alone with the feelings that I have.

I choose to live today in honor of Rachel, with praising God for all the beautiful things in life, and accepting that I praise in a different way than most but that I am not any less because of it.

I ask that you pray for Rachel’s family, friends, and followers today as they go through the grieving process of losing such an incredible person. We may not understand why this has happened, but I know on the other side of Heaven someday that we will.

God is good even when we cannot understand. Rest in peace, RHE.



Seasons of Struggle.

Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.”-Romans 8:5-6

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Ever feel like you’re just not yourself?

Not being true to yourself. Not being who you know that you are. Not being who God made you to be.

I am going through this cycle right now.

This highs and lows game of life has me on the low side, I am struggling with the feelings of not living up to who I am.

The reality is that I am disappointed in myself. I am struggling with giving myself Grace, and letting go of things that were meant to be let go of.

So I am going to worship, and study the Word, and try to detach from the world for a bit. I am ready to have myself back.

Struggling today. But I know that struggles don’t last forever.