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“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”-Matthew 28:11

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I do not have a photographic memory. Yet for some reason I have the worst moments I have experienced seared into my brain. I remember exactly what that nasty text message or email looked like. I can see what that person looked like as they gave me horrible news.  I can see the look on the other person’s face as they found I had let them down.

I know exactly where I was and exactly what I was doing when these things happened.

I remember all the feelings: devastation, anger, disappointment, confusion, frustration, futility, and injustice.

Sometimes I visit these memories, and they make me feel all those emotions again.

It not only physically, but emotionally exhausts me.

& I have come to the realization that I do not want to be that person anymore. 

I want to change my way of thinking and processing. I want to focus on the good. I want my memory to change from remembering the bad so deeply to remembering the good times so intensely.

My mindset must change.

I have to CHOOSE to focus on the good. I have to CHOOSE to be in those moments when they happen and be grateful for all the amazing things I have chosen to look over in the past.

I want to choose peace. I want to choose goodness. I want to choose God’s mercy and grace.

What do you choose today?

-Kristin

 

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