“How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?”-Psalm 13:1
I drove 45 minutes, and literally climbed over two fences (and past a few “keep out” signs) to get here.
I did it not go for the view, but in an attempt to get an ex boyfriend I desperately wanted back in my life.
We were going fishing and though I was exhausted and worn, I put in every ounce of effort I had left to make it out there to be with him.
& it didn’t make a difference. I didn’t get that guy back. I left with an even sadder heart and this picture as the only positive part of that evening.
I gave it my all and nothing came of it.
That hurts more than anything doesn’t it?
When we give things our all and feel like nothing comes of it, even worse that God is absent from our struggles.
We cry out in frustration: WHERE ARE YOU? I DID MY BEST, WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?
Often, we think the deafening silence we hear in return is a slap in the face.
& on that day specifically, I felt that way.
I knew that this God everyone spoke of must not exist, or must not have cared about me because how could he? Wasn’t he supposed to come save the day?
At the time, I didn’t understand that God is a God of love. That even though I couldn’t see it, He had to let me struggle through this time so I would not continue to go back to this unhealthy relationship that was not good for me.
I needed it even though it hurt! I didn’t realize it at that time and it took me a very long time to see it.
If you’re struggling today, I get it.
I get the pain and heartache and feeling that God is not there or that maybe He doesn’t even exist. But friends, He does. He’s there for you even when He doesn’t seem it. & He will love you through it all.
Take heart today y’all. He loves us big time.