“But you, Lord, are a compassionate and generous God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.”-Psalm 86:15
I’ve been absent from the blog for about two weeks. Mainly because life has been crazy and I didn’t know how to explain it in words.
From a hurricane, to a water heater leak (mold=yuck), to people being horrible, to friends experiencing extreme loss, to so many other things I don’t wish to even think about. It’s been a difficult month. The worst part was last week when my dog had to have emergency surgery.
He’s okay and is recovering now (which has been in of itself harder than I ever thought it’d be). But this month has changed who I am as a person.
The events have pushed me to painful places that I wish to never visit again. Places where I found myself feeling as if I were drowning and was afraid that God would not show up in time to save me.
But every single time, when I was at the very end of my rope and no longer could go on any further, He made himself known. He picked me up and made me stronger than I ever felt possible.
It’s an insane feeling of peace that is hard to explain, but it exists. I know because I have lived it in some of the deepest, darkest moments of life.
September. You were meant to destroy me. To pull me away from God and isolate me until I could take it no longer and broke.
But thankfully, love is stronger than hate. God can pull us out of your most desolate of places and remind us where we truly belong and who we truly are despite our circumstances.
I’m thankful for the God who directs the winds and waves but still cares about a heart like mine.