” ‘For I know the plans I have for YOU,’ declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.’ ” -Jeremiah 29:11
Being told that you are a piece of crap really can make you feel like a piece of crap, you know?
I remember being with someone who told me that he did not like that I did not pray aloud. That I did not serve in the church. That I did not run around like a chicken with my head cut off doing Bible studies and volunteering for the church. He was disappointed that I did not openly share and show my faith.
& it killed me. What killed me even more was knowing that later on, I had done the same thing to others.
When you are new into loving Jesus and learning about Him, you usually do not jump right into praying over people. Serving in church is awesome, but it is not required. It also certainly is not necessary to keep yourself busy running/attending a bunch of different Bible studies.
So to be told that you are not good enough as soon as you are interested in just who Jesus is and His abounding love for us, well it just plan sucks. It makes you feel crappy and unworthy.
Which is so incredibly far from the truth of Christ is. We are unworthy, yet He loves us so much despite it all.
To Him, we are so, so, so worthy.
It took me some time to realize that the person’s words were not God’s words. God allowed me to grow in my own time. He showed me how to love deeper and be brave.
Words that say you are not enough are not words from God.
Whether you are brand new, and not really sure what is going on (been there) or are deep into your relationship with Christ but just have kind of lost yourself and your purpose for a while (definitely been there), remember that you are not expected to have it all together. It is okay.
God does not rush us to do things we are not ready for. If anything, it is honestly the devil’s doing if we feel we are being pushed too much, too soon. He knows we will rush into something for God, not be ready, hate it, and resent Him.
Follow your heart. Even if others cannot understand and try to make you feel awful. Our journeys may be different but He loves us all the same no matter where we may be in our faith. ❤