Not All Who Wander.

“With joy, you will draw waters from the wells of salvation.”-Isaiah 12:3

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One of my favorite quotes is “Not all those who wander are lost” by JRR Tolkien.

I believe it’s a quick reminder that just because we are not where everyone (ourselves included) expects us to be by a certain time in our lives.

I am a wanderer. I have not found myself entirely yet. All I know this that Jesus is my home no matter where I may be, but I cannot say I am fully where I felt like I would be.

Ever feel that way?

I do not fit to the standards I feel I am supposed to as a Christian women.

I am unmarried, currently church hopping, and finding more about God in the most nontraditional ways possible.

I am wandering. & I am learning to be okay with that.

God is good and loving even when we aren’t where we think we are supposed to be. I am grateful that He loves me deeply in the clean and messy times of life. I am thankful that He calls me His child no matter where I may be and who I am.

If you are wandering like this girl is, know that you are not alone…and you are definitely not lost. 🙂

-Kristin-

 

Paul.

“He fell to the ground and heard a voice say to him, ‘Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?'”-Acts 9:4

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As you begin to read and study the Bible, even just by doing a page long devotional a day, you begin to deeply understand the people involved in it.

My blog’s name is based off of a verse from the the book of Job so I do have a deep connection to Job’s story and journey. I also have come to love so many others like Jacob, Jonah, and Timothy. Though, there is no one I relate more to than the Apostle Paul.

Cliff notes version:

-His original name was Saul

-Paul HATED Christians. He persecuted them and anyone who even thought about wanting to follow Jesus.

-Jesus literally stopped Him in the middle of the road one day and cried out “Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?”

-He changed after this “meeting” with Jesus and went on to become one of the greatest leaders for Christ that there ever was. He is the writer of most of the New Testament.

Talk about a comeback right?! That guy who was incredibly against every single thing Jesus was for ended up becoming one of the top people to help save others in Jesus’ name.

I like Paul’s story because I feel a deep connection to my own.

From being a person that fiercely did not believe in God to now striving to make His name known for all.

A person who was majorly messed up and lost LITERALLY being stopped in the middle of a highway to hear Christ calling to them.

To feel like you’d been right all of those years, only to realize in a moment how incredibly wrong you had been.

To be taken from this place of darkness and brought into the light to forever dwell with the Lord.

I praise God every single day that He takes mess ups like Paul and I and turns them into something they never thought they’d be.

-Kristin-

Agape.

“The Christian life is characterized by sacrificial agape love.”-John 13:35

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There is so much confusion in this world about who Jesus Christ is.

I feel as if a lot of people think he’s this weird person. This person who lived a long time ago, and if he is real, looks down on us in total shame for all of the things we have done.  This guy who seems so unreal and smites us for not being good people. I think some people believe he either let’s everyone in to Heaven or sends us all to Hell when we die. Well, if he exists.

Y’all…

He’s so real I find it hard to use words that describe his true, utter, amazing realness.

God became flesh in order to save us all from our unfortunate destiny: spiritual eternal death. He literally took part of himself and formed himself into a human man named Jesus. Crazy, right?

You see the thing is, there HAD to be a sacrifice in order to save all of us. To give us a chance to get to go to Heaven and live out eternity with our Maker. Even though He knew people would hate him anyway, He chose to sacrifice himself.

He lived a perfect life until he was in his thirties. He was betrayed, beaten, flogged, tortured, and nailed to a cross to die for US. To die so that we may have a chance to live.

It’s insane. I know. But that’s what love is. Love in it’s truest form. Agape love.

He sacrificed himself so that we could get the chance to go to Heaven and be with him forever. All we have to do is believe in our hearts that He is real and accept Him as our Lord and savior. THAT’S IT. It’s as simple and complicated as that.

I want to make this so clear. YOU ARE LOVED.

It doesn’t matter…

-if you are a jealous person

-if you are envious

-if you commit sexual sin

-if you are the meanest person in the world

-if you are “perfect”

-if you have done what you consider to be the ultimate sin.

HE LOVES YOU.

HE LOVES YOU.

HE LOVES YOU.

Jesus is real. His love is real. & He cannot wait for you to discover this for yourself.

-Kristin-

14 Reasons Why.



The hype of “13 Reasons Why” has been extraordinary and has caused a lot of discussions to spark about the touchy subject and the repercussions of our actions.

I read the actual book a while back and it was a reminder to me that our words and actions, no matter how meaningless to us, mean something to others. & how FINAL suicide is. You don’t get to come back. There is no sequel to our lives.

Unfortunately since reading the book, I forgot about that. 

I hit some serious bumps in the road a few years later and frankly, I’m lucky to be alive today. I’m lucky I never went as far to cross the line you can’t come back from. *Thank you Jesus.*

At my lowest, I remember going to someone’s house that I was pet sitting for. I went in the middle of the day when I figured no one would be around. I sat in the middle of her kitchen floor and hyperventilated crying. I just wanted to be alone because I knew no one could ever understand the pain I was feeling. Her family members unexpectedly came over to get something and found me. They asked me what was wrong and the only thing I could say over my literal screaming tears was “I don’t think I can do this anymore.”

Like I couldn’t do life anymore. Like the pain was beyond what I could handle. Like I just wanted to cross that dangerous line.

If I had crossed that line I would have missed out on the BEST parts of my life. *Thank you Jesus for your intervention.*

I have 14 huge, amazing, wonderful Reasons Why I’m so happy to be alive today despite everything that I was up against. 14 Reasons I would have missed if I had chosen to leave this world:

1. I got to meet Jesus. In the most innocent and incredible of ways.

2. I have a relationship with my Dad again.

3. I found out who I am and am learning to accept it.

4. I finally met the guy who loves me for who I am.

5. I have my dream job that I worked so hard for. 

6. I met people who make me happy to come to work.

7. I bought my dream house.

8. I reconnected with people I was estranged from.

9. I learned to stand up for myself and for others.

10. I became a fur mom.

11. I reached the goals I made for myself.

12. I found peace with my past.

13. I finally found a diet that works for me.

14. I’m getting to live the life I’ve always wanted to live.

Life is so good. Even when it doesn’t seem like it. 

Choose to live. Speak out if you need help. Love yourself enough to ask.

& write down the 14 Reasons Why you don’t want to miss out on your future.

-Kristin