“For if we are beside ourselves, it is for God; or if we are of sound mind, it is for you. For the love of Christ compels us, because we judge thus: that if One died for all, then all died; and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.”-2 Corinthians 5:13-15
I have never felt as crazy as I have the last two years that I have come to know Christ. Like have to sit around sometimes alone and question if what I am doing makes me slightly psychotic. Like call up my friends and ask them if they think I’m being ridiculous kind of stuff.
This once non-confrontational soul has been speaking out for what is right. My once very analytical way of thinking has been totally flipped upside down; I try to think about WWJD instead (corny but you get the point). I am more patient than I ever thought I could be. I am less anxious and more bold than I ever thought humanly possible. I’ve been able to say sorry and mean it. I’ve been able to forgive things that have happened to me personally that I know people would not blame me for not forgiving.
This is not by accident. This is not of my own works. This is from God.
I’m still a sinner. I still struggle. BUT I am finally beginning to feel some of that peace people talk about when they try to live the life God has called them to live.
I’m beginning to accept that I certainly am crazy, but in the best and most life changing way ever. People may not be able to understand this way of life, but aren’t we so lucky to have a loving God that always will?