When God Says “Wait”.

“For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord will give grace and glory; No good thing will He withhold From those who walk uprightly.” Psalm 84:11.

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For the unmarried, patiently waiting ladies out there, this one is for you:

I know what it is like to feel like you are the outcast, the only one with the naked ring finger, the one who always has to third wheel it, the only person at work who is not a “Mrs.”, the one who sits out during the slow songs at weddings.

You are the one who stands by as you watch all of your friends find the love of their lives. You attend all of the engagement parties, you help arrange all of the bridal showers and bachelorette parties, you help with the details of the weddings, and then you walk down the aisle and stand by your friends’ sides as they commit to their Prince Charming for the rest of their lives.

Then soon after you find out that your friends are having a baby! You scream with excitement and hug them so tight because you cannot wait to see your best friend become a mom.  You support them with love (and tell them how absolutely gorgeous they look even with swollen feet) and help plan their beautiful baby showers. Then support them with homemade meals, hugs, encouragement, and promises to come over and listen to the baby monitor so new mama can finally take the shower and two minutes of rest she desperately needs. You put on your brightest smile then go back home, alone.

People have a hard time understanding how you can be SO incredibly happy for them, and still struggle with the fact that it is not your time for that season in life. 

Let’s be real here, dating in 2016 SUCKS. “Ghosting” is a real thing (I know from experience), and most guys just want one thing.  I still cringe when people say they sometimes wish they could still date, because of how fun it is. When you meet the right person, it is fun to date! But when you meet frog after frog, it is incredibly discouraging. Going home to a husband who loved you enough to marry you (even when it does not seem like it) sounds a lot more fun than going out on a date with someone and having them tell belittle and beat you down because of your faith or because they think you “eat a lot for a first date”.

It’s rough out there, y’all!

But I KNOW that good things come to those who wait. & that sometimes God wants us to do other things with our lives before committing to our soulmate forever and becoming moms.  He loves ALL of his girls: the single, the married, the divorced, the separated, and the widowed. I know in my heart that he does not hold anything back from those who love him, and that when it is the right time, he will give us the desires of our hearts.

We may have to kiss a lot of frogs, make a lot of mistakes, be a “Maid of Honor” instead of “Matron of Honor” for a few more times, and sleep soundly throughout the night for a few more years, but our times will come to be wives & mamas.

So let us enjoy the seasons of life God has placed us in.  We have to remember that it is ALL for a beautiful reason. ❤

With love from a “Miss”,

-Kristin-

 

 

 

 

 

Press On.

“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Jesus Christ.”-Philippians 3:14

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I feel like we often place limitations on ourselves based on our fears and what others think of us.

We do not believe we have the strength, wisdom, or talent to do what we want or know in our hearts that we should be doing.  I find that I have a harder time NOT doubting myself than just doubting.

In 2010, I was determined to go to the University of Central Florida in Orlando.  Like seriously, determined.  So I went there with my mom and we met with an advisor about transferring over by the fall of 2011.  The woman told me that there was really no chance that I would get into UCF.  She suggested that I try to get into Valencia Community College down the road, and then showed me the door.

Honestly, I was devastated. I cried the entire way home in the car and felt like crap for a few days.  I felt like I was watching my dream be squashed and it really hurt.

So I waited and thought about it.  I decided that I did not care what she said, I would work hard in my last two semesters at my local community college and get amazing grades so that I could graduate with my AA and apply to UCF.

So, I did. I studied constantly and worked my butt off. Then I held my breath and sent my application out to UCF. Then I got the letter back..

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I WAS IN.

The feeling of elation was incredible and I soon set off to Orlando for two years to earn my bachelor’s in Elementary Education. Of which I earned straight A’s the entire time.

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After graduating in 2014, I went straight to work at a school full time and during my first year I began a graduate degree program in education.  I was once again told that it would never go anywhere, and that I probably would not finish.

I graduated in June of 2016 with a perfect 4.0 GPA.

Yesterday, I received a letter from a local college stating they had hired me as an adjunct professor (one of my other dreams come true).

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I do not write this post to brag about myself and my accomplishments, but to remind you that we can never, ever, ever give up on our dreams. Where would I be if I had allowed that woman to affect me so deeply that I chose to give up?

I know God wants us to be fighters when it comes to this stuff. He wants us to push beyond our comfort zones and go into places that shake us up and stretch us.  

What is he calling you to fight for today? & Will you answer the call????

-Kristin-

 

I Am THAT Girl.

You are altogether beautiful my love, there is no flaw in you. Song of Soloman 4:7

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I am that girl who is notoriously known for having allowed men to treat her like crap.

It is not an easy thing to admit to, and it still stings to say but it is true.

I once dated a man, for a very long time, who emotionally abused me every single day. Some people out there say emotional abuse is not real, but it IS. It is painful and slowly kills your soul.  The harsh words feel like knives in your back, and the snide remarks make you feel like you are worthless.

Unfortunately, he was only one in a long line of crappy boyfriends and flings who did not know how to treat ladies like ladies, and it really took a toll on me.  It bothered me more than anything that I continued to allow men like this into my life who broke me down, cheated, and lied. I felt like junk.

But I got to know an amazing man named Jesus Christ in 2014.  He came into my life like a gentleman, waiting patiently, and speaking to me with kindness.  He loved me for everything that I was and everything I was not.

He took all those nasty things that had been etched onto my heart and tattooed over them “you are altogether beautiful my love, there is no flaw in you” and I finally grew to believe that HE was right about me.  Those boys did not know a thing.

I know what it feels like to be beat down, humiliated, and abandoned.

But I also know what it is like to be cherished, loved beyond measure, and adored.

Where are you today? Are you feeling beat down and broken or loved beyond measure?

You have a choice today to choose what imperfect people say about you, or what a perfect God knows about you. What will you choose to believe?

-Kristin-

 

Thank You.

Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” 1 Thessalonians 5:18

I posted this on Facebook Live the week my life went crazy (dog died, hurricane preparation, wondering what else could go wrong) but never got around to posting it to my blogging world.

THANK YOU for your prayers and love! They mean more than words can say.

-Kristin-

 

Whole Lotta Jesus.

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come. 2 Corinthians 5:17

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Three years ago I was on a path of absolute destruction.

I chose to allow pain to consume me, and I felt like I was literally drowning in sorrow.

It took me a little time, and a whole lotta Jesus to come out of the heavy depression I was in…but I came out of it alive. Which is not something I am able to say for some people who have gone through similar sorrows.

I think sometimes we get so caught up in the horrible things that have happened in our lives, that we forget about the great things that have happened too. I am guilty of this.

Shaking my fist at Heaven for what has hurt me, but rarely getting down on my knees and praising God for ALL the good He has done in my life, and all of the things He has protected me from that I know nothing about.

Sometimes it feels easier to be angry instead of grateful.

But the incredible thing about Jesus, is that He thinks I am awesome anyway.  He thinks I am the best even when I forget to pray or lash out in anger instead of praise.  He loves me for who I am even though he has seen me through every deep, nasty piece of my life.

He’s seen me through the deepest sorrow and the highest joy, and today, I just want to thank Him for it all.  The deepest sorrows were painful lessons learned (that I may still never fully understand this side of Heaven) and the highest joys were a reminder of how amazing this crazy life is.

I am thankful for a new life which will never end.

-Kristin-

 

 

A Beautiful Day.

Open rebuke is better than love carefully concealed.  Faithful are the wounds of a friend, But the kisses of an enemy are deceitful. -Proverbs 27:5-6.

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Jesus tells us that in this world, we WILL have troubles.  It is a definite, and almost a warning to put on our seatbelts, because it is going to be one heck of a ride in our time here on earth.

&  boy, was He right!

There are so many troubles in this world that either we go through ourselves or that we see others go through.

We never have to go through these alone though, with God, family, and FRIENDS by our side.  I really cannot imagine getting through my own hard times without my friends.

 

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Friends are the glue that holds our lives together.  They are there for us when things are good, and when things are not so good.  They love us for who we are.

 

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When we have a disagreement or fight with them, it feels like our world is falling apart because who else can we talk to when we are upset??

 

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We often choose to swallow our pride, and let go of our oppositions because it hurts too much to be at odds with them, especially when either one of you is going through a hard time.

 

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I think God gave us friends to show us many things: how to love someone even when its hard, how to learn to enjoy giving rather than receiving, how to care for another over ourselves, how to learn to laugh at yourself, and mostly how to enjoy life to the fullest.

 

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If you have a friend that has loved you through the highs and lows of life, reach out to them today and let them know how appreciated they are! It’s a beautiful day to make someone’s day. 🙂

-Kristin-

Where is your victory?

“O Death, where is your sting? O Hades, where is your victory?” 1 Corinthians 15:55

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Death.

Even just looking at the word makes most shudder.

Honestly, I have felt really apprehensive to write about this topic because its some deep stuff, but I know it is something that we all will face someday. It’s taboo and some think pretty morbid, but it is important to discuss.

As Christians, we KNOW that we will get to go Home to HEAVEN when we leave this earth. But it’s still kind of freaky to know that we will go through this transformation, and we never know when it will happen.

I once heard that there are SO many far worse things in life than our own physical death.  Losing our loved ones, being physically assaulted, being paralyzed, being abused, seeing the constant hatred in this world, and the list goes on.

I have fears, but death is no longer one of them.  I know where I am going and even though I am sure my body and instincts will be fighting it as I one day leave this world, but my soul will be totally at peace.  It is the most beautiful and crazy thing I have ever found myself to believe, and it’s taken me some time to get to this point but I am thankful for it. I love life, and I pray that I do not die soon, but if it happens I want people to know that I am okay.  I get to go be with Jesus, in the most beautiful place, ever created…how bad could that possibly be?

If you were to die tomorrow, are you confident in knowing where you are going? Do you feel peace or panic?

Jesus died on a cross for your sins and mine.  God gave his Son as a sacrifice so that we may know Him, and know that there truly is no death when we put our faith in Him.

If you’re panicking, it is NEVER too late to turn to Him right now.

Find peace y’all. Jesus loves us more than our words can say and in Him there is no true death.

Thank you Jesus, you’ve set us free.

-Kristin-

Light Shine.

In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. Matthew 5:16

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The blogging community is pretty amazing, and supportive.  It surprises me how you can connect with people you have never met before.

One of the very first blogs I connected with was Kerry McLachlan‘s faith based blog.  She talks about the hard stuff; like the things that hold us back from the freedom Jesus has given us and parenting strong-willed children.

There is a beauty in the vulnerability we have of exposing our everyday life struggles & triumphs.  I think Kerry shows this in a very humbling way and I am so glad that I stumbled upon her blog!

Check her out at:

https://kerrymclachlan.wordpress.com/

-Kristin-

Not What is Easy.

If someone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen? 1 John 4:20

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This is a hard one to talk about, but I know it is necessary.

I have hated people. I have HATED them with absolute rage, anger, and disgust.  There are many different reasons why I have hated them, and none of them were just. Though, I just could not let it go.

My Bible study group and I started reading Bob Goff’s “Love Does”, and it changed the way I thought of myself and others forever.  It knocked loudly on the door of my hatred and I was surprised when I allowed it in.  LOVE asked me to reach out to someone who I had HATED and ask for their forgiveness.

& I balked. I did not want to forgive.  I did not want to interact with them.  I did not want this.

Though, I soon realized love is stronger than hate when I found myself reaching out to that person. & to my complete surprise, they not only forgave me for hating them, but also asked for forgiveness for what they had done as well. It’s been a few months since this interaction, but believe it or not, I will be on my way soon to go visit her after swearing her off forever a while go.  All because my heart gave into love instead of hate.

So, I did it again.  With another person whom I had absolutely hated (and had made it known that I did). I did not expect the same luck I had before, and was assuming they’d blow me off or tell me where to go and how to get there…but again, the opposite happened.  Forgiveness, sorry, healing.

I did this same thing, five more times with other people I did not have a very good ending with.  & the reaction has been the same EVERY SINGLE TIME. I am floored and thankful, because I never would have guessed that this would have happened.  BUT it did.

I am not saying that this is going to happen for everyone, all the time.  Sometimes people just are not ready.  Their hearts are broken, they are angry, they are sad, etc. But I think so often, people are ready to hear from us but we are afraid of what their reaction will be (I know I sure was) so we just stay quiet.

Even though I have seen these amazing results, I still struggle with this.  I am sure I always will. But God is love and if He lives in our hearts, love will ALWAYS win over has.

Love has set us free.

-Kristin-

 

Up on a Mountain.

“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” -Psalm 46:10.

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I have climbed two mountains in my life, and they have both been some of the hardest/best experiences of my life.

In 2012, my best friend Madison, her grandmother, and I climbed Mount Pisgah in Vermont (by the way, if that sounds familiar its probably because it’s the name of a mountain in the Bible too; cool right?!).  It was my first time ever doing it and it was physically challenging and somehow emotionally freeing all at the same time.  I had just had a bunch of life changes at the time and I felt like while I was literally climbing that mountain, I was finally figuratively climbing to the top of the mountain of craziness in my life. I got to the top and it was like everything I had gone through, and every tough time had been worth it because here I was, standing on top of the world. I did not know Jesus at the time, but I felt a strong presence of peace with me.  I know He was there, enjoying the beauty with me back then and celebrating the hurdles I had overcome to get to that point.

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In 2015, I was lucky enough to climb another mountain again with Madison, her grandmother, and another friend, Katie.  This time we went to New Hampshire and climbed Mount Willard. It was GORGEOUS. Honestly, not only was the view even better but I felt more alive because I KNEW that God was there with me.  I literally felt his presence constantly during the entire hike all the way up to the top and back.

 

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As we were going up, something caught my eye. In a slight patch of sunlight, clear as day, was a perfect little cross made out of two pieces of wood (pictured below). It kind of blew my mind how perfect it was, and I immediately felt like this was a sign from God of a reminder that He was with me once again.  How beautiful, and comforting, and amazing this was.  It’s hard to really explain what it felt like, because it was so much more than my words can say.

We do not ONLY experience Christ in the church setting.  We can experience Him ANYWHERE at ANYTIME.  I am not saying do not go to church, but we should never believe that Jesus only belongs in the church. Christ was separated from God during His crucifixion so that we would never, ever, ever have to be separated from Him. Like ever.

He is with us always. Up on a mountain, or in a church pew, or in your car, or on the floor of your bathroom as you wipe away tears.  He is with us. & man, what a beautiful thing that is.

-Kristin-